Dreams, Meds,Blood and California

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me sometimes.  I tend to sleep like a rock in the ocean.  Sometimes when Im alseep my partner tells me that I spell out words and I talk in a funny lanquage.  I suppose I probably do because I really have some  strange dreams.  Stuff I couldn't come up with even if I was high on the best weed.

I am looking forward to my Doctor's visit about my blood results.  I have been on HIV meds for about at least a month for now.  I hope that they are good and that my Viral load has dropped or it becomes undetectable.  Im greatful that the state pays for my meds but why do I only get two refills for the year?  That doesn't seem right.

Well by the grace of God my partner, dog and I should be on our way to Oakland, Ca.  I pray that we can get everything together here without fail and interference on our exodus out of this God awful city and state.  We tried to make things work here but this place really has nothing to offer us.  I have applied for all kinds of jobs in this little town and everytime I was told lies that they weren't hiring but they always had a different person working in the stores when id go apply or even ask about working.  Maybe I can get something in California or I can finally get the disability that I have been constantly denied.  If  not work I can have my financial aid reinstated so I can continue my education.  Lord give me strength and watch over me.  I just feel so scared but I know this is the right thing to do with my life by moving to Oakland, CA.