Hi all.

I had cancer. I had surgery to remove it. I have been diagnosed with depression, I have 2 children with autism. I feel so alone. My husband is an angry lazy passive agressive person. I am feeling that he married me just because he got me pregnant with our son. I can't get our son the IQ test he needs. I am having trouble thinking of my son( and daughter) as mentally disabled and wonder if I should put my son on disability benefits. I wonder if the disability money would help to pay for an IQ test (although it wouldn't pay all the $1770 dollars it cost.) I am seeing a marriage councilor but i wonder(by the way he talked to me) if hes a woman hater. I am isolated from family and have no friends close by. I thought that if you married some one that you did everything you could to make their life easier because you love them. And that the other person would do the same because they loved me. I feel like i am being set up all the time. IE: I went out for about 2 hours on a saturday. Husband was home.  I felt punished because there were (NO kidding at least 4) walls covered in crayons and markers. Then the school came before i could get it all off. They called Child Protective Services because of the writing on the walls.  They threatened to take my children away from me. I was punished again because it took me 3 weeks to try and scrub and bleach it out of the textured walls. Boy did my arm hurt from scrubbing i could hardly lift it up. Im tired of this crap but at least the marriage councilor said that my children are well adjusted. Husband works 8 hours drives for 4.