you tell me

Figured I would just get on here and write a little bit. I am not even sure how I am feeling anymore I am taking nerw meds Wellbutrin XL and Vistrail. At first they made me very hyper and happy but it has been two weeks now and I have no energy again. I missed one day of my meds and could tell a difference started getting down just for missing one day wierd if you ask me. I lost my insurance so I am not even sure how long I will be able to take my meds. I do not understand why one even gets down. I need motivation I know what needs done but that just is not enough knowing and doing is two different things.

Somedays I feel all alone and for the most part I am. I mean I do have my kids and my husband but sometimes it would just be nice to have a friend to go visit and talk about anything or everything. (you know what I mean?) I do not understand why it is hard to find friends around here, I used to have friends or thought I had friends but all that changed when I moved away for awhile. I really do no tlike it here but this is the only place my husband will live and this is where my kids are. This town is so small and there is alway drama going on. I try and stay away from all of it so I will not get down. I just do not get it