Just gets worse

Well yesterday had an appointment with my P dr. To add to all my other issues, let put borderline personality disorder. She actually thinks it is worse then my bi-polar. She wants me to go away for a month to a hospital to work on my PTSD...I guess that is where PD stems from. I am just so sick of taking all these pills. I just want to be numb, I just don't want to feel anything. In away I am glad that I have a heroin addict that is a close family member or I think I would have tried it...I have seen the damage done. It really sucks not having anyone to talk to about it. My family is either all dead, or I have disowned them.

I guess one more day down...