August 19, 2009

I was up all night last night again for like the 7th night in a row.  I have been unable to function recently due to all the stress and anxiety I'm under, as well as, pain issues.  I got up and took a really warm bath around 3 AM.  Decided I would just stay up and start trying to get into a routine of taking my medications at the same time every day.  I've been up at 6 AM for the past two days so I'm working on it.  A couple of my medications I can not lie down for 30 minutes after taking, so I have to push myself to stay up.  I suppose that is how I got into the routine of doing mindless stuff online, like playing on facebook and myspace apps. 

My concentration has been suffering for several months now and I have been put on academic probation at school.  I just can't seem to get my head into doing my assignments and I get so frustrated I think that I wear myself out over it.  I was a Dean's List student just a couple of months ago, I must get my head together. 

My doctor has forewarned me that she will be weaning me off my Vicodin in October, after I have recovered from my upcoming hysterectomy.  I wish I were in a better place financially right now.  If something happens to me and I don't make it out of surgery I would like very much to give my kids a better start. 

Well it's time to return some calls and order refills on prescriptions and try to be a little better responsible and organized.  So I'll be back tomorrow.