End of the line

I am so sorry you have to go through this. My goodness girl. I am certainly not a religious person per say. I know your faith is in question right now but I believe God has other plans for you and you just haven't received your orders yet.

There are days when it does feel like God has a vendetta against you - I'm sure everyone has had them.  I had one on Thursday.  In the end you must trust that there is a plan - albeit a struggle and sometimes terrible one.  Everyone goes through periods of despair and mental toughness - one can only hope that we all make it through it.  

I agree with Loves2paint - he does have other plans for you and you haven't received your orders - HANG IN THERE.  

u are, in my thoughts and prayers,iy makes me really sad to hear what u are goinh thru.your 2 young for all of this!i live in sooo much pain and i am trusting god will turn a new page for you and u will go back too having a normal life!god bless.u are an angel!!sue

God is just getting you ready to start a new chapter in your life. Your strength and determination will help pull you through all of this. I know it seems that sometimes God isn't there or he's off in right field somewhere but God is there and don't give up. You have the support here and hopefully from family and friends, don't be afraid to ask for help or just an ear to listen.

I know exactly how you feel.  I was just asking myself that same question.  I was raised in the church, and never blamed the Lord for anything that happened to me (and believe me, I've been through more hell than most young people our age will ever go through...I'm sure you understand).  I was dedicated and no matter how much I was abused, I devoted my time to getting closer to Him.  It didn't seem to matter what I did though, crap kept coming my way.  

I know that this is not His doing, that there is more to all of this than what we see.  Keep praying, no matter what.  You will find the answer, and He doesn't have a vendetta against you.  Keep your chin up.  He has every tear bottled and knows every pain you feel.  We may be broken, but we have not been destroyed and some day, this will all make sense.

I don't know if you're religious.  I don't push my faith on anyone.  God knows I am far from perfect.  If you ever need to talk about anything, just shoot me a message.

I know it can feel like that at times. Like the time I woke up in the hosptial and they told me they had to rush me to the er because the seizures simply wouldn't stop. I wondered what did I do to deserve this? Grammal are bad enough but finding out you had several in row and then thinking what if no one had found me? Would have I died? They didn't stop! As time went buy I realized that my experience was actually making my faith in God stronger and I had a testimony to share with others in my shoes. Those feelings of vendetta is one would call a spirtual attack. The way you choose to approach this could effect someone else's faith. Someone who looks up to you could say wow that person has every reason to hate God, but yet remains faithful. I guess their is something to this God person. I'll tell you one thing God carried me through the most difficult times and he'll carry you to if you let him.