life

It is a weird bittersweet hurt when you are confronted with someone who rejects you not because of who you are but how you appear.  With a guide dog constantly in tow many people never pay attention to you because of some weird natural instinct to reject the unfamiliar.  However, they are totally ok with distracting and petting my dog (which is sooo harmful to me).  Ever since I finally embraced the dark world I had been secluded to many of my old friends have backed away or even refused to talk to me.  Even my fiance, who was there through the whole experience of becoming sick then losing my sight, has started to back off and is thinking of calling off the wedding because I am "just not the same."  Who says change is this big horrible monster anyway?  I think that this experience has strengthened me and made me a better person.  I have not resorted to drugs or became unfaithful to myself.  I have become more independent but also I count the blessings and find happiness in the little things.  I lost almost everything but I did not lose my life so why sulk?

Funny how things turn out.

Noble (my new guide dog) and I are going to go far together!