I was a very productive person working 2 full time jobs at vet clinics and ran my own rescue, Cajun Chihuahua Rescue & Retirement. I had been sick for years but was told I was just getting old. I can no longer work, I had to stop rescuing needy lil Chihuahua's which in my ten years of rescue...
Challenges...we face them everyday. For most people, "challenges" consist of dealing with difficult people at work or trying to juggle the kid's soccer practice with important business meetings. For those of us with lupus, challenges can come in the form of just getting out of bed in the...
Lupus flare began 12/23/2009. Have no idea what brought it on. Today is 01/15/2010, and it is finally receding. Symptoms have been debilitating fatigue, severe muscle pain and weakness. Also, had a breakout of ulcers in my mouth and a bacterial infection in my left breast. The ulcers are gone, but the...
I don't even know what to feel! Am I angry? Am I exhausted? Am I ready to throw in the towell? I just can't describe this! How much can one person take? I can't take the pain anymore! I have delt with pain for a long time, this is extraordinary pain! And to be told its permenent and we can...
shhh... there lies a secret deep inside of the pain in which i must hide sometimes it will seep and then i will weep on the inside because i must hide i have become a good actress and want for the norm but pitty is not pretty, especially when worn so once again i am left torn no words to be spoken not...
nobody knows the battle within i am just not fit for my own skin i want to run and jump and play my body just tells me there is no way i want to run far, far far away and pretend i cant hear a word that i say i want to be out of me, free as a bird that sounds sick and i know its obsurd but its the truth...
my heart feels like a gelatinous mess, flipping and flopping all over my chest, and without warning, it sends a great pain, bringing me to my knees once again.
So going through several health crisis' at once proves remarkably isolating, frustrating and difficult. I have a 15mm herniation and CSF blockage and need a good neurosurgeon for a consult. I am tired of my pain. I am tired of the chronicity of it. I wake up with it, go to bed with it and walk around...